[{"data":1,"prerenderedAt":56},["ShallowReactive",2],{"post-on-losing-my-status-as-a-planet":3},{"id":4,"title":5,"body":6,"categories":44,"date":46,"description":12,"extension":47,"image":48,"meta":49,"navigation":50,"path":51,"seo":52,"stem":53,"tags":54,"__hash__":55},"blog\u002Fblog\u002Fon-losing-my-status-as-a-planet.md","on losing my status as a planet",{"type":7,"value":8,"toc":40},"minimark",[9,13,16,19,22,25,28,31,34,37],[10,11,12],"p",{},"So I get anxiety attacks. So what.",[10,14,15],{},"So sometimes I'm standing in line at Starbucks during a perfectly productive and normal day, and my mind starts racing about some particular topic, and I suddenly realize that my heart is racing, and I'm standing in a cold sweat.",[10,17,18],{},"I have a headache within seconds, and my breathing is irregular. It's not necessarily the same thing that sets me off, but I would have to say that the large majority of these mental rampages are close to the topic of money. Not having it, but... well, not having it.",[10,20,21],{},"I'm drinking hot coffee now. I have been a total wuss about my caffeine intake until this Saturday.",[10,23,24],{},"\"Single Grande No-Whip Mocha Frappucino, Please. Oh, and can you put that in a Venti cup?”",[10,26,27],{},"That was even a step up for me. A year ago, I couldn't stand the taste of espresso, so I would get the grande caramel frappucino. Whip cream and all. Now, I've progressed beyond my wildest dreams.",[10,29,30],{},"\"Single Grande No-Whip Mocha, Please.\" See the difference? IT'S HOT!!! That's the difference. I have been a clumsy fool when it comes to hot drinks for the duration of my life thus far. Now, having clearly established that I am ill-prepared for the New England winter at hand, I am taking my first steps toward full-body warmth. Hot mocha. With a shot. So I'm warm, and jittery.",[10,32,33],{},"A new member of my ever-swelling and contracting inner-circle of influential relationships (hereafter referred to as \"Lektor\") has helped with a couple of the other steps. She's begun buying me wool hats that cover my ears and are \"soooo cute\" on me. I've generally had a helluva time finding hats, 'cause my head is so big, it's just slightly not a planet (I feel your pain, Pluto), so the new headwear is greatly appreciated. Gloves, on the other hand, have not yet been added to my 3 ft of closet space, but should be soon.",[10,35,36],{},"I'm rambling, but that's mainly 'cause I have only about 3 things on my mind, and I am not allowing myself to discuss any of them here... yet. I just really want to get over this anxiety, and get back to my luscious hot mocha.",[10,38,39],{},"Oh, and... go out and buy the latest cd by the roots. Now. And get ready to ... well, have your face melted.",{"title":41,"searchDepth":42,"depth":42,"links":43},"",2,[],[45],"Non-Fiction","2005-10-29","md","\u002Fuploads\u002Fblog\u002Fon-losing-my-status-as-a-planet.webp",{},true,"\u002Fblog\u002Fon-losing-my-status-as-a-planet",{"title":5,"description":12},"blog\u002Fon-losing-my-status-as-a-planet",[],"FCakE8VxUJCjfKJa_oUFYnStuENkEx1jmds98mtAyUE",1794164769388]